Is Death overrated?
Why do we all fear ascension?
Am I wrong to look forward to my final day?
I’m not suicidal.
BUT, I’m looking forward to my final death.
Nine times I’ve passed and had to return.
That’s not fair.
I have outlived so many souls that deserved to have outlived me.
I feel guilt.
I feel like I have cheated my friends somehow.
Why have I lived to be sixty-two?
Why did the Creators take my handsome son, Jordan, via a Christmas Day suicide, my beautiful Sheena Eve, my beloved Steve and Danny Delaney, my almost son, Jason Jilks, Jonathan, Dougie, three of my namesake sons, Daniel Juniors, my father and my Mother?
My only answer is, as I’ve stated in blogs and my books, we live seven lives.
We walk seven paths. 7 plains of space/time continuums.
Google seven existences or read the holy books.
(All mention seven )
We are not meant to be aware of this though.
Some, such as I, are cursed by knowing they have walked these walks.
My lighthouse premonitions are a curse.
Eighth walk is a bitch, Boo.
For there is no nineth crack at the bat.
This final stride I must walk is my penance, my own personal Hell laid before me by my own personal Jesus.
Should have listened to my Mother,
“Never trust a gangster.”
But, I was a gangster most my life. I had to trust them.
If I let you into my home I trusted you.
I should have listened to my father-in-law who once told me,
“The only trouble in your home is the trouble YOU let through your door.”
I didn’t take that advice.
I don’t fear life because I don’t fear death and as my autobiography.
“Walk With Dann Collection”
shows, I earned a horrible death.
Here is a prime example of what and how deep I played “The Game.”
The bags are Heroin, Crystal Meth, Crack Cocaine and Pure Cocaine.
Nice citizens we? NOT!!!
I made my money by storing hundreds of thousands of dollars in drugs. Often storing guns and explosives.
My location was a safe house. The “Vault.”
Perhaps, this will show you how I have changed from being, “Shake Dann Verner” – the extremely dangerous gangster of my youth into “The LightHouse Dann”.
I have worked very hard to become a better person. A citizen, but, not a citizen Kane.
We even had the gangster Mercedes complete with a stash box in the back of the passengers seat.
Bullet proof side panels and glass.
We looked great cashing our welfare cheques.
Like I said,
Don’t fear Death – fear life.
Death is easy, living is difficult.
The universe plays tricks on us.
I live with my sadness and guilt daily.
I will certainly continue to do so.
Yet, I shed tears daily for the souls the Cosmic Muffin stole from me and from their loved ones.
I fear not dying.
I fear living.
Dying is painful, believe me, but it is also easy.
Living is difficult in every way.
By being so it teaches the necessary life lessons.
I fear the pain of missing those who I’ve outlived.
I have passed through life while more deserving were robbed of such.
My first murder was dismissed by a very expensive lawyer and a short stay in a mental asylum.
Events over the years would make my lawyers wealthy men.
The gods have had their fun with me.
The devils have played their sick tricks.
I’ll not come back the next time.
Follow me if you wish, but don’t walk my path.
I will pass this final time with a foolish grin and a happy heart.
Until that day, I stand as you will for life is a bitter pill.
I wait for my last day. Smiling.
I have had so many, too many lowlife people take pieces from my soul.
This would break the spirit of most people.
I still will give whatever piece of me there is left.
A mere act of kindness and humbleness is priceless in the game we call, “life.”
I am a realist.
My life is too precious to be brought into a depression via actions I can not control.
I find humour in every situation and aspects of my life.
There may be a hurricane on the ground, but, you can rise above the storm clouds..
It is always sunny above the clouds.
I will still trust people.
Not everyone is the same.
The gangsters will have their laughs.
Little do they know what awaits them.
Valhalla is for heroes and warriors.
Helhiem is not.
In closing, may I state, that although I write regarding my past criminal experiences and actions, I am not proud of any of them.
I Pray that my posts, blogs. Vlogs and books will touch one soul and change their life.
“Wouldn’t that be cool?”
Namaste’ my friend.