I think way too much.
It’s an infliction of having a caged intelligence.
I have spent most of my adult years wondering what spiritual complexity suits my needs the most.
What manmade misconstrued concept shares my beliefs and can “Walk With Dann“, whilst holding true to MY belief.
Having been raised by the army boots and coporal punishment of leather straps by Roman Catholic Nuns, the “Brown Shirts” of a man THEY call ‘POPE’, I hold no Catholicism in my heart.
I went through my ‘dark‘ years believing that I ‘believed‘ in no man conceived ‘ONE GOD, ONE RELIGION‘.
Many years ago I authored “JESUS WAS THE ORIGINAL HIPPIE”.(lighthousedannverner.WordPress.com)
HE WAS AND HE IS.
Most Holy Scriptures concentrate on what took place after the Crucifixion of this gentle man.
Much is written in various languages and religions of his teachings.
Much is written about the Apostles and ‘THEIR’ interpretation of HIS life.
I asked myself many a time, “Who walked with The Son Of God before He encountered the Twelve?”.
Who were HIS first believers? Who were HIS priors – HIS first confidents?
Yes, I am an Irish R.C. by birth. A Rotten Catholic for sure.
Judaism slightly impressed my curious desires. But, alas, it also held too many hypocrital chapters for me to cross over and circumcision was out if the question.
Islamic so-called “faiths” are obviously NOT my cup of tea.
With that said, I shout out to all religion’s, “Knock not my door with your “THY SHALL NOT KILL, UNLESS IT IS IN MY NAME “.
I recall no chapters telling me to kill non-believers.
From reading the various, actually NUMEROUS, rewrites of the Bible, dabbling into the Torah and laughing at the ridiculously unbelievable Qur’an, I was left to believe that perhaps J.R.R. Tolkien’s “Lord of The Rings” could easily be scratched from the Earth many centuries from now and believed to be truth.
For the majority of Holy Books are, to me, a collection of fairy like tales of man.
For many a year I believed I was a man who held no belief other than that of minstrels such as John Lennon and”Give Peace A Chance”. Add a little “Imagine” combined with George Harrison’s “All Things Must Past” and that defined my interpretation.
My seven times dead helped me understand “FAITH”.
I finally learned the difference between ‘faith’ and ‘religion’.
It was then I realized I was a man who had no religion.
May I quote REM? “THAT’S ME IN THE CORNER. LOSING MY RELIGION”.
Recently I had a Facebook Brother, who had read my WordPress blog, ask if I were “Natsarim“.
And, ever since, I query myself each day, “Am I Natsarim?”
I am exploring this now – deeply.
Perhaps during one of my seven past existence’s I walked the path of gentleness, truth and peaceful teachings.
Perhaps I have always believed in such a HOLY and PRECIOUS manifestation of that which differentiates “SHAKE” from “LightHouse“.
As “SHAKE” I broke nine of ten Commandments.
As “LIGHTHOUSE” I have strode to make amends with my many faced god and paid an extremely self brutalizing penance for my sins.
Much like a virtual ‘Flagellent‘ performing mortification of my flesh with an extreme whipping of my troubled soul.
I am researching and digesting Natsarim.
Is it coincidental that after my first return from death and the visitation to the self documented ‘SEVEN PATHS, SEVEN CHOICES’ , I finally realized the meaning of ‘FAITH VS RELIGION’?
“NATSARITH (natsar, the root) hence means ‘watchtower’, and ‘NATSARIM’ are ‘WATCHMEN’.”
Is not a ‘watchtower’ a mere landlocked ‘lighthouse’?
Thereby stating a keeper of a lighthouse is actually a “watchman”?
I will not complicate this piece with once again detailing my SEVEN returns from my SEVEN deaths. How each time I had the choice of SEVEN pathways. If you wish, go to my archived published writings and teach your soul.
I am awaiting my gift of ‘TZITZIT‘ from my newly found inspirational friend and I shall use them in conjunction with a proper prayer covering.
And I shall bathe in the solace of prayer and isolated belief as I search out a suitable Temple of Knowledge and school myself in the TRUE ways of becoming a bonafide Natsarim.
After all, I have already walked with the ‘Greater Being’ and have been foretold of this ‘Time of Man’.
And, as I have asked before, “WHO IS THE PROPHET OF NOW?”
HINENI, MY LORD
FOOTNOTE …… REMEMBER THESE SIMPLE LIFE LESSONS AND “IMAGINE” IF ALL LIVED TRUE TO THEM ……
The LightHouse Dann Verner 